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How long do we live?

Today, I start 16 weeks of long service leave. Last week, Clea’s brothers turned 12 years old. In 10 days’ time, we will leave for Chile, Bolivia and Peru. And in about five weeks time, I will be 50 years … Continue reading

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300 Weeks

Tomorrow (Tuesday), my daughter will have been dead for 300 weeks. Clea would be 12 ½ now. She would be in Year 7 at Amaroo School. She would be tall probably already taller than me. She would be Clea. Each … Continue reading

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Companion of my soul

It is unusual for me to be home alone with my own thoughts but today is one of those days. My husband and our sons have gone to Sydney on a bus to play Auskick at half-time during the game … Continue reading

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Keeping the Dead Alive

Clea has been dead for 182 weeks (that is three and half years) and I am finding life very difficult. I spend a great deal of my time trying desperately to keep Clea alive. I do many, many small things … Continue reading

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Hope

Anniversaries are days which are more important to other people. It is when they remember what is our daily existence. That is fine, I do not expect people to live my life and I actually would not wish anyone to … Continue reading

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We All Know

I have been going to the same gym since before Clea died, therefore I have known most of the staff since before Clea died. Yet, only one member of the staff has ever mentioned Clea to me and that was … Continue reading

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The Staleness of Life

“Apparently, even the most awful tragedies, and the people they’d ruined, got a little stale after awhile”. Tom Perrotta, The Leftovers. It doesn’t take long for a tragedy and ruined life to become stale. My daughter has been dead for … Continue reading

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