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Mothers’ Day (or almost 400 weeks)

Mothers’ Day doesn’t mean a lot to me. We never made a big deal of it before Clea died either.  When the children were younger they would make things for me such as bookmarks or photo frames from childcare or … Continue reading

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Seven Years

Seven years ago I promised my daughter that when we returned from our holiday in Samoa that we would replace the curtains in her room and repaint her room. Seven years later, I have finally managed to replace her curtains, … Continue reading

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How long do we live?

Today, I start 16 weeks of long service leave. Last week, Clea’s brothers turned 12 years old. In 10 days’ time, we will leave for Chile, Bolivia and Peru. And in about five weeks time, I will be 50 years … Continue reading

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A secret life of fear

About six months ago, our neighbour’s house burned down. It happened late on a Thursday night when we were already in bed, around 11 or 11:30pm. We were woken by load banging on the front door. Our neighbour had been … Continue reading

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300 Weeks

Tomorrow (Tuesday), my daughter will have been dead for 300 weeks. Clea would be 12 ½ now. She would be in Year 7 at Amaroo School. She would be tall probably already taller than me. She would be Clea. Each … Continue reading

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Extrovert to Introvert (loneliness and solitude)

At the beginning of 2013, in a job which was not for me, for the first time in my life, I was described as an introvert. Initially, I was very taken aback as I had never considered myself to be … Continue reading

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Five Years

It is now five years since my daughter, Clea, drowned in a tsunami on Lalomanu beach, Samoa. I so wish that she had not died on 29 September 2009. Every day I wish that she had not died. I am … Continue reading

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