Tag Archives: grief

Fight or flight

I’m like everyone else, I’m waiting for me to feel better about myself. Unfortunately, I’ve come to understand that I am not going to feel better and that these past eight years of being relentlessly sad have taken their toll … Continue reading

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Fifteen

My beautiful daughter would be 15 years old today but she has been dead for 432 weeks. As usual, I’ve taken flowers and a cupcake to the cemetery where she lies beneath the ground. This time of the year is … Continue reading

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Seven Years

Seven years ago I promised my daughter that when we returned from our holiday in Samoa that we would replace the curtains in her room and repaint her room. Seven years later, I have finally managed to replace her curtains, … Continue reading

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How long do we live?

Today, I start 16 weeks of long service leave. Last week, Clea’s brothers turned 12 years old. In 10 days’ time, we will leave for Chile, Bolivia and Peru. And in about five weeks time, I will be 50 years … Continue reading

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A secret life of fear

About six months ago, our neighbour’s house burned down. It happened late on a Thursday night when we were already in bed, around 11 or 11:30pm. We were woken by load banging on the front door. Our neighbour had been … Continue reading

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Good People

Every so often someone comes along to restore your faith in humanity. About three weeks ago, my sons’ football coach approached my husband to say that he was very sorry that we had lost Clea and that he hadn’t known. … Continue reading

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We’re Skating

“We’re skating” Clea would say as she slipped around the new cork floor in her socks. Today is my daughter’s 13th birthday. She desperately wanted to go ice skating during the July school holidays in 2009. We are 6 1/2 … Continue reading

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