Tag Archives: Clea

Happy Mothers’ Day

In Australia, in particular, people talk about restarting 2020 because we began the year with catastrophic bushfires and now we have a pandemic. I would still like to restart 2009. It’s been a long time since I posted anything. Now … Continue reading

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10 Years

I’m not sure what to say … yesterday, I was trying to work out what I should write for a 10 year post. On 29 September 2009, my daughter, Clea, drowned on Lalomanu Beach, Samoa in a tsunami along with … Continue reading

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500 weeks

Today (30 April 2019), it is 500 weeks or 3,500 days since Clea died. I don’t really know what to say. I was listing in my head all the places we have visited in the past 500 weeks. It was … Continue reading

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Another Year

On Tuesday more milestones will be passed. Clea’s brothers will start Year 9 and Clea’s friends will begin Year 11 at new schools. And it will be 489 weeks since Clea died. We’ve already had our 10th Christmas without Clea … Continue reading

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Year 10

It’s almost the end of yet another year. Time keeps ticking away. In September, we marked nine years of life without Clea. Soon it will be Christmas and in less than one month, Clea would be 16 years old. Clea … Continue reading

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Fight or flight

I’m like everyone else, I’m waiting for me to feel better about myself. Unfortunately, I’ve come to understand that I am not going to feel better and that these past eight years of being relentlessly sad have taken their toll … Continue reading

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Fifteen

My beautiful daughter would be 15 years old today but she has been dead for 432 weeks. As usual, I’ve taken flowers and a cupcake to the cemetery where she lies beneath the ground. This time of the year is … Continue reading

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Mothers’ Day (or almost 400 weeks)

Mothers’ Day doesn’t mean a lot to me. We never made a big deal of it before Clea died either.  When the children were younger they would make things for me such as bookmarks or photo frames from childcare or … Continue reading

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How long do we live?

Today, I start 16 weeks of long service leave. Last week, Clea’s brothers turned 12 years old. In 10 days’ time, we will leave for Chile, Bolivia and Peru. And in about five weeks time, I will be 50 years … Continue reading

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A secret life of fear

About six months ago, our neighbour’s house burned down. It happened late on a Thursday night when we were already in bed, around 11 or 11:30pm. We were woken by load banging on the front door. Our neighbour had been … Continue reading

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